Take me to the clouds above

Everytime I see your face, I fall in love all over again. There's a certain magic about you, a mystery that I'm longing to solve, but you haven't even solved it yet. You are electric, and this is forbidden - so tell me...why does it feel so damn right? I want to be with you so so much, but I can never have you. If things were different, you would have made me yours long ago. Instead, we are condemned to an endless tease of lust.
Oh, how I long for you to be mine.

Thanks

I love you for being there for me when I didn't even know how much I needed you. I'm so glad you spoke to me, and told me more about yourself so I understood that none of this was my fault. You never knew how much you upset me - you never knew it was you, but I am grateful that when I wanted to talk to you about 'an issue', you cared. You will never know that the issue was you...and I don't mind. It's all okay now.

Push and Shove

Okay, so today
You pushed me away

I feel like I am broken and I should have known it would happen, but that doesn't stop it from hurting so so very much. I wonder why you don't want me to know about you. I'm left wondering what I did wrong. I'm craving so much to be that girl who would make a difference, prove to you that I'm not like the rest...but I think you know that. I think that's why you've pushed me away. You wish not to be hurt by the one light on your horizon. Despite my best efforts, this light is beginning to dim, right before your eyes. It probably wasn't your intention to hurt me. I won't go away. You'll never know how much I still care about you. I won't stop caring. You shared everything with me and now you regret it. I felt so special because you shared yourself with me. Maybe I just want to be THAT special one - the only one.

You don't wish to see the good in yourself that I see in you. There's nothing I can do to change your mind.

I'm so very tired of being pushed away.
What made you think I was unbreakable?

I wish to be left alone.
I want to be surrounded by people
I'd love to know if anyone still cares...

Oh.

Oh.
I had a fantasy that you sang to me in my sleep. After a wonderful moment, as we lay in each others arms...you sang to me. I had such a powerful vision that I felt the tears falling from my face before the images completed forming in my head. I'm craving a memory that doesn't even have a shadow.
Oh.

Healing and Heartache

I know I have a purpose on this planet. Among many things, my main job is to heal others. I've always known that, all my life...when I am the one people come to for help. I like to help others. But lately, that is a burden.

I need help. I need a lot of help. I can't talk to anyone about it because they will see me as weak, and then who will they turn to for help? I sometimes think that I would like to return this gift. I want others to like me for who I am - not what I can do for them. At least I don't think I'm being used. I don't know, maybe I am.

I would really like to talk to someone. I'm glad that there are two people left in this world who will listen.

I have one wish right now. Above everything I'm going through, and the hard road ahead...the only thing I am wishing for is the power to say NO.